Mathilda spends his time reforming the wall between the two. Wall collapses when it is found. Yes, it is reversed, it is destabilized because it transgresses its defense mechanisms. As a woman facing the man, she is full of contradictions. Contradictions that inhibit it, something she can not identify, that frightens him. She has a collection of armor it is against her. She can not let go. It sabotaged. She refrains from living fully. Her whole body talks yet. Impulses, desires, fantasies it touches the finger, which are almost there, it looks at the border, but do not go. It stays there. She tries to control everything to fear ... Fear .. (?) The feeling that a piece of it will be ripped off. Maxime is unstable elusive. She does not understand why he is always there. He returns, he goes. It is like a teenager . He never says where he is when he comes when he returns. She tries to break, he refused without giving any argument, without changing its behavior. He returned unexpectedly, his smile under the window. She throws key.
Night at near her, it clings. Once she departs to try to sleep, he begins to shake, cringe. Profuse sweating, moaning that subside only when taken up in his arms. She feels in those moments to be his mother more than his lover. Yet between them, understanding sexual harmony, with an exquisite sensuality. While she is prepared to trouble, to discuss their relationship to the question, he raises a finger to his lips, kissed her gently on eyes, cheeks, neck and down it is finished it and its resistance. Their bodies know themselves acknowledge, are mixed. They do not know which is the hand of one or the other, they cross, overlap.
She has pain when he leaves. Everything happens there. She feels that it is hanging there. She can not rationalize, intellectualize this relationship, she does not understand. Its cycle is messed up, bleeding, pain, delays, she somatizes.
Every four days she wants to break. He looks almost sheepish, takes her hands and told him he does not understand what the her home. He says being aware of its shortcomings but it can not consider leaving. She confronts him about his feelings, he has no rational answer. He loves it and transcends it. Provided he can not bring himself to commit a minimum with it, he transgresses the frame, he flees and then returns.
They will find much to their amazement, they read in their thoughts. So that they can not agree, talk to them, to consider a stable relationship, they recognize to be permanently connected emotionally, and are surprised to think the same thing at the same time, même lorsqu'ils sont éloignés. C'en est presque épuisant.
Mille neuf cents vingts six ans plus tôt, juste avant de mourir, Lisa serre son fils tout contre elle pour apaiser ses tremblements. L'enfant gémit, fiévreux, effrayé, il claque des dents. Elle même est terrifiée. Dans un dernier râle, elle rassemble tout son amour pour protéger l'enfant. Elle le prend tout recroquevillé contre sa poitrine et son ventre. L'enveloppe dans ses bras, resserrant le châle autour d'eux. Et dans une prière d'amour, ils s'apaisent et se figent dans cette position en fermant définitivement les yeux.
Improbable reunion ...
to follow ...
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